Starting all over againBy firstname.lastname@example.org | Comments: 4 | April 28, 2017
Today I wanted to talk about something a little more serious. I really am enjoying opening up to you all as it as a form of therapy in writing and knowing I am not alone in my feelings. On my Instagram post from a few weeks ago I mentioned childhood insecurities turned into adulthood insecurities and how I overcome them by doing what I enjoy and letting my art be my outlet.
This week I really hesitated and even considered not posting more personal anecdotes. This story is especially painful and hard to even think about most days. I still get mad at myself thinking about how I let myself get into such a toxic relationship. How could I let that happen to me? Am I such a fool to be controlled by another person in that way? Through the process of self reflection I learned that I cannot fault myself for how I was treated, but learn from the experience and never let it happen again. One of the only reasons I urged myself to share my story is so that other women and men can know that they deserve better for themselves, and if they are going through or have gone through the same situation that they can and should get out. I learned that just because someone tells you they love you does not mean they have your best intentions at heart. Sadly most people only look out for themselves and their interests. I want them to know that they are not stuck and they ARE in control of their own lives. I tell myself that I cannot dwell on the past but have to be so grateful that I was able to come to my senses and end the cycle. That’s what matters at the end of the day. Even though my story is not one of physical abuse it is one of psychological and verbal abuse which has been extremely hard to overcome. I used to be a shell of myself and I didn’t even realize it. I am so grateful to be able to breathe and live life on my own terms without constantly being put down. I rely on my loving friends, family, and personal passions on the days that I feel especially low and continue to commend myself on the fact that I escaped.
If you are going through any situation you feel you can’t overcome I urge you to tell someone close to you. I promise you’re not stuck and that you do have the strength to overcome it. My story is just one of many, I chose to give myself a better life and so can you. Also feel free to comment below if you have advise for others going through a situation like this or if you have gone through a similar situation. You can also email me personally if you don’t want to share it on this public forum.