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Starting all over again

By pernankil@kavya.com | Comments: 4 | April 28, 2017

Today I wanted to talk about something a little more serious. I really am enjoying opening up to you all as it as a form of therapy in writing and knowing I am not alone in my feelings. On my Instagram post from a few weeks ago I mentioned childhood insecurities turned into adulthood insecurities and how I overcome them by doing what I enjoy and letting my art be my outlet.

This week I really hesitated and even considered not posting more personal anecdotes. This story is especially painful and hard to even think about most days. I still get mad at myself thinking about how I let myself get into such a toxic relationship. How could I let that happen to me? Am I such a fool to be controlled by another person in that way? Through the process of self reflection I learned that I cannot fault myself for how I was treated, but learn from the experience and never let it happen again. One of the only reasons I urged myself to share my story is so that other women and men can know that they deserve better for themselves, and if they are going through or have gone through the same situation that they can and should get out. I learned that just because someone tells you they love you does not mean they have your best intentions at heart. Sadly most people only look out for themselves and their interests. I want them to know that they are not stuck and they ARE in control of their own lives. I tell myself that I cannot dwell on the past but have to be so grateful that I was able to come to my senses and end the cycle. That’s what matters at the end of the day. Even though my story is not one of physical abuse it is one of psychological and verbal abuse which has been extremely hard to overcome. I used to be a shell of myself and I didn’t even realize it. I am so grateful to be able to breathe and live life on my own terms without constantly being put down. I rely on my loving friends, family, and personal passions on the days that I feel especially low and continue to commend myself on the fact that I escaped.

If you are going through any situation you feel you can’t overcome I urge you to tell someone close to you. I promise you’re not stuck and that you do have the strength to overcome it. My story is just one of many, I chose to give myself a better life and so can you. Also feel free to comment below if you have advise for others going through a situation like this or if you have gone through a similar situation. You can also email me personally if you don’t want to share it on this public forum.

With love,

Kavya

4 Comments

  • Rakhshanda Rehmat
    April 28, 2017

    First of all I just want to say I’m a huge fan of your style and all of your outfits. And secondly I just want to say I’m sorry that you had to go through that. nobody deserves to be treated that way and I hope you get to find a way better person in the future that treats you like a F’ING Queen and loves you unconditionally♡♡ Thank you for sharing this with us I can only imagine how hard it must’ve been. As a Desi brown American girl I’m really proud of you cuz gurl u slay!!! lol
    xoxo
    Roxy

    • pernankil@kavya.com
      April 30, 2017

      roxy,

      Thank you so much for your unconditional love and support, it really means the world to me.

      looking forward to sharing more styles and stories <3

      -Kavya

  • Nimisha
    April 29, 2017

    HEy kavya! I absolutely admire this post and the courage it takes to open Up About your life and share it wiTh others. Life is a personal jourNey with good and bad moments, but to learn from every situation is progression. I went theough something very similar for a long time with a person, and the moment i Decided to walk away, that was the momenT i realised my sTrenGth. Ive recently written some posts on my blog about Some personal things in my life andhavent posted them yet (i think im scared to!) but reading your post has Given me some confidence to do it and help those i can. Love your work hun! Xxx

    • pernankil@kavya.com
      April 30, 2017

      Nimisha,

      i am so glad you decided to walk away. That is really the moment when you find your self worth and know you deserve to be truly happy. I really encourage you to write more personal posts on your blog because it not only will help you heal but help others learn from what you have been through.

      Much love,

      Kavya

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